happy?

Its odd. Not know what your purpose in life is. Don't you agree?

Lately I have been thinking so negatively.

why is that everything in my life has changed? I have 324545 billion questions to ask myself and I have no idea what they are.

Am I changing? Its amazing how things end up don't you think?

I feel as though I'm missing something. Like I left something undone. I want to go back and fix that. I have an idea of what it is, but I know that when I attempt to sort things out, it'll just make things worse. It's funny how that works.

No matter how badly I want to work things out, and be like how things used to be before any of this, it is nearly impossible...

So many questions are left unanswered and that's how they will remain...for now. I just want things to be like how they were 2 months ago. when we were still friends.

So, Mark Ryden. don't you just love his art work?^^ I find it so amazing. I can relate to everything he creates in some shape, way, or form. I'd marry his art work if I could.

So I have this "nicoteen' thing for school and like it shows you what its like to have an addiction, and apparently.. Im super addicted! I've had FIVE cigarettes today, and its only been active for two and half hours! HAHA.

Soo what else is going on in my life... besides chaos.

I'm still grounded, until the 3rd of June!

So, I've been listening to the same song over and over again. haha.

Ive lost 6 hours and 3 minutes from life and I've spent six dollars and sixty cents on smoking. haha.

Umm lets see, I gauged my ears so a size 4. I skipped sixes. haha. My mom hates them but I like them. Trinity wants them so she can do hers. So as soon as I get my plugs, I'll let her borrow my tappers. I'm not going bigger cause if I do, My mom would kill me. But I am getting more piercings. haha, I love them!

Im waiting for my dad to come and get me, so I can hopefully get a new phone cause mine is breaking. It only works when it wants to. I also just want a new phone cause I don't like mine anymore. I want a full keyboard. haha.

Its 12:45 and I'm still the only one awake in my house.

I'm done.

sorry for the inconvenience